If you are
looking for me,
I am not hard to find
Walk upstairs,
there is a white door
on your right
Open it
Do not touch light switch,
just walk in
I am here
Don’t be afraid of darkness,
she is my sanctuary,
protective shield
I spend many hours here,
staring through the window,
searching for answers
Sitting on the edge of bed
weeping
Talking to ghosts
Asking forgiveness from some,
trying to forgive others
No one can inflict pain here,
except if I let my mind
make my body suffer
I am not lonely, but busy
attempting to retrieve
lost words,
lost worlds,
from fading memory
It is a quiet time of night
I am on my own, yet
even in empty darkness
children are still here,
playing, talking, smiling
Books waiting to be read
Repotted orchid
growing a new leaf
Statue of two friends
holding each other
Come
sit by my side
Let us see in darkness,
what all others failed
to see in the light
(C)Dinka Bednjacic 2019.